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Rue Royale
Created on 2005-06-04 10:03:07 (#7325133), last updated 2006-01-27
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Basic Info| Name: | Louis de Pointe du Lac |
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BioLestat has a way of presenting a choice that has only one true option, the one he desires. Such a choice was presented to me two centuries ago. It was not so much a choice of whether to live or die because I was going to die either way. He had already made sure of that.
I had in fact, begged for death, courting it in taverns and deserted alleys, overcome with grief and guilt at my brother's recent death. Imagine my shock when my Angel of Death had clear gray eyes and a halo of thick blonde hair, whispering sweet promises in my ear as I lay dying, the very thing I had begged for. But at that moment, in strange clarity or cowardice, I am not sure which, I suddenly did not want to die at all. My past turned to ashes in my mind, all my deeds, my guilt, my prayers, my entire being, ceased to matter. Here was something greater than myself, something more than human and just shy of a god, if such gods even existed. I was filled with wonder and infatuated with the possibilities.
Once it was made clear to me, there really was no other choice. And so I died, reborn again as an immortal. Had I truly understood what I was to become perhaps I would have chosen otherwise but that is irrelevant at this point. I have come to accept my nature. I smile grimly when I hear the other immortals call me "the most human" of them all for I most certainly am not. I am a killer, just as they are, a monster without redemption. I take life without compunction and I do not adhere to their old code of killing only the "evildoer" for who am I to decide who is evil? I take life where I find it because I must.
I enjoy human pastimes as do many of the immortals. What is an immortal life spent alone? Lonely. We would rather surround ourselves with all things mortal than be alone. And so I come here, to converse with you, dear mortals. Tell me your thoughts and I might tell you mine. Converse with me and comfort me on these long and often lonely nights.
I had in fact, begged for death, courting it in taverns and deserted alleys, overcome with grief and guilt at my brother's recent death. Imagine my shock when my Angel of Death had clear gray eyes and a halo of thick blonde hair, whispering sweet promises in my ear as I lay dying, the very thing I had begged for. But at that moment, in strange clarity or cowardice, I am not sure which, I suddenly did not want to die at all. My past turned to ashes in my mind, all my deeds, my guilt, my prayers, my entire being, ceased to matter. Here was something greater than myself, something more than human and just shy of a god, if such gods even existed. I was filled with wonder and infatuated with the possibilities.
Once it was made clear to me, there really was no other choice. And so I died, reborn again as an immortal. Had I truly understood what I was to become perhaps I would have chosen otherwise but that is irrelevant at this point. I have come to accept my nature. I smile grimly when I hear the other immortals call me "the most human" of them all for I most certainly am not. I am a killer, just as they are, a monster without redemption. I take life without compunction and I do not adhere to their old code of killing only the "evildoer" for who am I to decide who is evil? I take life where I find it because I must.
I enjoy human pastimes as do many of the immortals. What is an immortal life spent alone? Lonely. We would rather surround ourselves with all things mortal than be alone. And so I come here, to converse with you, dear mortals. Tell me your thoughts and I might tell you mine. Converse with me and comfort me on these long and often lonely nights.
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